My struggle with Self Confidence .
Self confidence is an
issue that is widely ignored by most people as it is either regarded as
“attention seeking” or “humility” . But , there is a big difference trust me .
Low self confidence and self esteem cause a lot of problems
specially for the teenagers as they are just developing and are naive and don’t
know who to talk to . Leading them into depression , becoming shy and leaves
them feeling incompetent . The media plays an important role in how we portray
ourselves . There is a certain idea of perfection and we all try to squeeze
into it . I did too and had a hard time
trying .
Many people would class me as someone who is very
comfortable with herself , outspoken , weird as well as a freak . But ,all
that’s a big act , in fact I think I deserve an Oscar . I’ve struggled with my
self confidence from a tender age of 11. I was diagnosed with hypermetropia and
was given a thick frame of circular glasses with a string attached . As soon as
the school reopened the comments poured in , people mocked me and called me
names . I hated going to school I felt like I didn’t fit in I never did .
Slowly I overcame that phase and entered my teens , the age
where every body gets appearance cautious and social media had kicked in giving
birth to people wanting to look/dress a certain way , I struggled with that too .
While they posted pictures with wide perfect smiles , all my pictures turned out to hideous WHY ? because of course I was blessed with the worst dental structure ( Bunny teeth , extra canines , disoriented
teeth and what not ) . I strived a lot with figuring out how to smile ,
whenever the group laughed I covered my mouth trying to mask my teeth . This
went on forever .
Until one day when I came across a picture of me laughing and
it was taken from the right , and I was surprisingly in love with how it
looked . That day I realized it was all
about discovering the right angle and slowly but eventually I did . By the time
I turned 18 I had discovered my style and
a good angle . But , this was all about seeking validation and I had to get
over it .
Slowly I came out of that shell and started accepting my
flaws . I realized they made me , they were a part of my personality and were a
part of my uniqueness . I admitted my insecurities to myself , to others ,
learnt to laugh at myself , and found happiness and fulfillment regardless of my
insecurities .I comprehended that confidence is a process and a work in
progress not a permanent state of being I stopped trying to look like others because I obviously was genetically different and a $6 powder wouldn't help . Every day I work towards embracing
myself .
For those who know me personally y’all know I laugh like a
seal ! XP
Love yourself !
Until next time
Polý agape (lots of love) and stay cheerful :) !
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